Sunday, June 21, 2009

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hmph....
Jogging going well. Finished session 3 of week 4. I'm feeling a little more confident in attacking the next week's challenge. BUT, WTH???!!! I am just packing on weight! And I don't mean muscle weight - no, it's big boobage and big belly an big butt and hips >:( Whhhhhyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!??? grrrrr!

Kids driving me nuts and will soon be out for summer break - oh, joy :/ Which makes me feel like a terrible mother for feeling like this.

Christophe is being nice and all but keeps looking at me sideways as I get fatter and fatter. Trying to bite his tongue and not say anything.

Feeling all around pretty darn blah. :P

My reward for week four is this :
1 skein of this yarn :).

I'm nearly done with Grey's sweater. Trying to decide on buttons. Gray likes fairies. Couldn't find any. I did find some baby blue buttons with pink butterflies and some biiig pink buttons with I love you written on one and a different little design on the other two. I got both sets. It gives a different look to the sweater. What do you think?

6 comments:

Kendra said...

Ok...buttons....my vote is for the butterflies. But, I think she will love either one.

Now....clearly I have no business discussing weight, weight gain, weight loss, etc with ANYONE. I know you have been running and doing yoga, but the obvious question is about food. What have you been eating? Are you keeping a food journal?

Also, I don't really see how big boobs are a problem. But, then again, I don't have big boobs.

I would like to applaud Christophe for keeping his mouth shut during all of this. And I think that his doing so is for a good reason -

YOU ARE REALLY TRYING. AND NOT ONLY ARE YOU TRYING, YOU ARE STEPPING OUT OF YOUR COMFORT ZONE AND TRYING SOMETHING NEW AND HARD. CHRISTOPHE SEES THAT. WE ALL SEE THAT. I THINK YOU SHOULD TRY TO JUST FOCUS ON BEING HEALTHY - NOT THE SIZE. CONTINUE TO EAT HEALTHY FOODS AND EXERCISE. YOU'LL BE FINE! YOU'RE DOING A GREAT JOB!

Rebecca said...

thank you. makes me just wanna cry on your shoulder :(
you're right about all this but it's so hard. and i'm not eating very healthily as a whole. ahem ahem....

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caracolina said...

Please keep trying... As long as you continue to exercise things will work out. This used to happen to me - when I started exercising my appetite would go way up and I would allow myself all kind of snacks thinking "I'm working out so I can have this". Once you have a workout routine, do the food journal, like Kendra says. A meal plan also helps. And always make sure you allow yourself some treats. We're rooting for you, girlfriend!

Rebecca said...

Thank you :D
I'm going to town today so will eat a lot of junk :P
but i will start a food journal tomorrow.

Anonymous said...

do u want me to try and find fairy buttons here, i'm sure i can get some from pat at stitching post. just need to know size. keep trying, you'll get there eventually and you'll be doing it the healthy way. ask one of the docs you work with why this is happening - keep track of food - don't fret over it. love ya, mama