Well, today started off pretty darn crappy.
DH (d+++head, not darling anything lol!) greeted me this morning with a "you've really packed it on over the last week we werent here" while i was getting ready to go to work in a nice skirt, tights, and fitted sweater, thinking i looked halfway decent for once...
i prayed for protection from the hurt, i prayed for strength to keep my mouth shut. i got neither.
so we fought, i cried, i pouted. i was angry and hurt. and it wasnt even 8 am et!
i sent him a text message to apologize for yelling and fighting this morning but that i'm trying my best and that his words are continual sourcesof pain and hurt for me and are never a source of feeling loved and that i needed to feel loved. he texted back saying he too was sorry and that he would try to do better too.
in spite of all the emotional turmoil this dayhas brought on me, so far so goodsfar as staying on points is concerned.
i hope to do nordick track when i getin, then again i might opt for a walk. not sure which - options options ; ).
3 comments:
I hope you are having a better end to the day :o) And don't forget..... I think you're great!!!!! c x
Sorry I'm late commenting on this post. After I read it, I wanted to take your DH and pound his head into the ground. I then had to step back and remember who I was. This poor man needs his own kind of help. He needs help in redirecting his expectations of others. I will pray for him. You are a wonderful woman with many, many attributes. His trying to compare you with skinny models (or whatever his expectations are) is just stupid. Your "job" is to be a wife, a mother, a nurse and still try to make time for your own health and well-being. Life happens, shit happens. MERDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I would just like to slap him, let me, please????
Just be true to yourself and remember we love you for who you are not what you look like.
thank you both for your comments that i will return and read often as they are like balm for my soul. and i want to kock him upside his head often myself ;P
warm hugs!
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