Always too busy to be bothered with this blog! Got other things I want to be doing. Actually I've been pretty obsessed with ravelry and swaps and gotten over my head in it and all so I haven't had the time to do my other activities. Which is really stupid - it's brought me down a lot. I was doing a lot of praying and devotion, a lot of yoga, and some knitting and crocheting (but in moderation) and I had given up sweets and spending for lent. I was feeling really good about myself! I mean really good. And feeling true peace and joy. And I've gotten of kilter out of whack and all with my priorities. Now I feel stressed about these swap deadlines, stressed that my presents won't be good enough, stressed I won't finish all I want to finish, stressed I won't have enough money for our plane tickets because I spend so much on yarn and swaps, upset that I broke my lenten promise in a big way and haven't managed to recommit, and upsetthat I have to break open my meager savings in order to buy our plane tickets... Why do we do this to ourselves?
I'm sorry to carry on. I think I needed to see alll this in writing to do something about it. I'll keep you up to date on my efforts to turn things around. It's a momentum thing - takes so much more energy to brake and turn around than once you're already sailing smoothly. All prayers would be greatly appreciated!
4 comments:
I'm so sorry to hear how things have been going in France. We all do the same thing Becca. So with knitting and some with food. :) But, it's never to late to pick yourself up, dust yourself off and start again. Not tomorrow, but today. Right now! You have made the biggest step by realizing what you have been doing. Please know that I am thinking of you. And I am so sorry for constantly asking about when you are coming home. I can't wait to see you guys again, but it really doesn't matter when. We'll try to plan further in advance - maybe for next year! Ok? I love you! Hang in there!
YOUR MAMA SAYS, STOP THE FRETTING, LOSE THE WORRY, GOD IS STILL IN CONTROL - I KNOW THIS. HOW MUCH MONEY DO U NEED - I'M ASKING THIS - ALTHOUGH GOD HAS ALREADY HEARD WHAT'S NEEDED. SOMETIMES I JUST FEEL LIKE HE WANTS ME TO DO SOMETHING TO SPEED THINGS UP!!!!!!U KNOW HE'LL FIX IT. ANYWAY HOW MUCH, WHEN DO U NEED IT AND WHAT ARE THE DATES YALL' BE HOME???? LOVE U, MAMA
That's a mom that must want to see her daughter and grandkids pretty bad, huh?
And I think your mom is right. Things always find a way of working out.
Hey, girl. You know you're in my prayers. Hang in there!
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