'nuff said? hehehe
no, really. i am compulsive about having something in my hands now. i love to knit and i'm about the most impatient person in the world. So knitting (while waiting in line at store, while waiting at doctor'soffice or while kids are at sport things or whatever... while watching tv...) is imperative. i love the feel and colors of the different yarns i use. i love the creative process pre-project where you're pouringthrough your stash, your library, ravelry data base, your ravelry Queue..., the beginning of the project when you're learning your yarn, the end product - seeing a pretty something you made all by yourself, gifting it or wearing it yourself...
i love it all...except thepart in the middle where i'm...yep, you guessed it, impatient!
impatient for it to be done and for me to get to start all over again withthe million patterns and yarns clamering for my attention. Which brings mein part to my next N
So why do i do this to myself?
I already feel overtaxed by a yarn stash that has reached epic proportions (fondly known as SABLE =stash acquisition beyond life expectancy) and overstimulated by soooo many things i want to knit that several things happen :
1 i feel guilty
2. i feel overwhelmed to the point of inability to move forward
3. i end up with a dozen ufo's (unfinished objects) that junk up my house and my mind and add to my frustration and inability to move forward andit turns into a big viscious cycle; and besides that that gorgeous yarn is just sitting there in a half finished state being unloved and unused.
4. i feel inadequate
5. i feel bereaved that i will never be able to use up all that gorgeous yarn before i die which has me all depressed about how old i am already
6. i fear moths
Now, let me just point out that this type of behavior is NOT limited to my knitting life but also holds over into my eating habits and my spending habits in general... :P
And yes i DO KNOW BETTER but again... i'm a ninkampoop
and i fall right into that viscious, down sucking spiral every time!
huh! after writing this post, i'm too depressed to think about this part...i'll be back ;)
Feel it all the time and esp rightnow for some stupid reason. i love and miss my family soooo soooo much it is tearing me apart :(
So N... lots of things start with n but they all seem to suck right about now lol ;P