Sunday, June 5, 2011

WW week

9 ......9 .......................9..............9
I'm starting to tire of this. Tracking E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G. I put in my mouth. Stressing about points. Tryin gto make healthy choices.
Put like that, come on... not a big deal right??? I SHOULD be making healthy choices! But 36 (hey! lay off it, i'm NOT 37 yet!!!!) years of eating poorly and eating anything i want anytime i want (though definitely beating myself up over it and punishing myself over it) is hard to give up :(
I feel frustrated and wanting to eat more. My daughter asked if she could make a surprise for snack all by herself. She got pretty much all the way through without my help but she called me in at the cooking part...It was donuts!!!! NOOOOOO!!!!!! I LOVE donuts!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! arrrrghhhh!!! torture!!!!! I had a small messed up one.
Back to her cooking. She did great but she didnt understand that cooking the donuts in un bain de friture meant cooking them in oil ; she tried to cook them in boiling water. That's when she called me in to help. I thought, hmmmm... healthy option? Uh, no... only good to feed to the chickens lol!
So here i am making zuccini chocolate chip muffins and cake aux courgettes because our garden started producing a mother load of zuccini all of a sudden. And having donuts under my nose. and just wanting to giv ein and bury my face in it. I want to cry!
So instead, i threw a zero coke in the freezer so it will get cold and slushy quickly and i'm looking forward to that. In the meantime, i'm going to vaccum and mop and clean the toilets to stay out of the kitchen. :(
I have been continuing with my couch to 5 k. I just started week 4 today.
That's going ok but i can tell i'm losing my motivation and i'm not jogging as well or as "quickly" hahaha as i was.
I need some motivation. But the darn scales are NOT cooperating! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!


A Natural Alternative said...

Hold on there sweetie! I am going through the exact same thing. I revolted against my nutritionist this week and didn't diary one darn thing.

Come on there, hang in with me, we can do this. Don't look at it as a failure. It is just a day, and tomorrow is another to start again fresh.

I will get back on track tomorrow if you do. Hugs to you!!

Rebecca said...

ok. you're on! we're both back on track tomorrow morning! fresh new week!!!!
let's do it! thanks for encouragement :D